14 November 2022

Don't Be Afraid

 Do not be afraid of being fat. 

Your body is a gift. Your body reacts to many elements; nutrition, pain, trauma, movement, joy, depression, disappointment, transition, birth, baptism, disease, and so much more. Some is under your control, much is not. Your body is your tool, not your scale of worth or ability. You have so much more control in your mind, and even then, not complete control. 

Don't be afraid of these experiences that will inevitably change your body. Experience them, and choose those things that process the bad, and make you absolutely love the good. Choose to spend time with people and activities you love.

I'm so much bigger in body than I ever thought I would be. And I still dance, I cycle, I work, I juggle, I see, I make love, and I care for my children with great fulfilment. And more. Taking care of your body and punishing your body are so different. I don't have it all figured out, but I'm so done being disappointed in my body. I'm going to do all I can to o remain neutral or positive about it. Thank you God, for this phenomenal gift only you can give.

13 January 2022

2021 Highlights

  •  Favorite Songs:
  • 1 Levitating by Dua Lipa 
  • 2 Real Groove by Kylie Minogue 
  • 3 ocean eyes by Billie Eilish 
  • 4 not ready yet by basement waves
  • 5 deja Vu by Olivia rodrio 

Movies I saw:

  • Black widow (Liked it)
  • West Side Story (really liked it)

Challenges:

  • Anxiety, presenting in new and difficult ways 
  • Looking for a house to buy, not quite there yet 
  • Stand up comedy. Amazing, terrifying, unsure if I fit in.  

Miracles:

Really great therapist 

Fully Vaccinated 

Got to go to the temple 

Healthy family